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Received an email from the doctors in Vienna today asking us to bring AJ straight to 17B for admissions the day before the surgery in Jan. As I read it, an image of me holding my little boy at the hospital waiting for him to be admitted splashed in front of my eyes...and I felt sick in my stomach. Everyone who has written here says that this is the worst and the best is yet to come....and I guess this anxiety, this fear and this pain right now make the relief and joy of the other side worthwhile! But I don't know how not to worry, how not to fear, how not to feel sick and how not to stress and so thus I count down each day that takes me closer to the 11th of Jan!