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Alaina's Mom
03-05-2008, 04:06 PM
Alaina is my beautiful little girl born on September 6, 2007. She is little sister to Reggie now almost 3 years old. Because of all our craziness with both pregnancies we are thinking that we are done. We have our boy and our girl and I don't think we could handle another pregnancy.

We went to Alaina's 2 month appointment in November and the doctor pointed out that her head was flattening in the back (Reggie's did too) and that one of her eyes seemed droopy or smaller than the other. I asked about the shape of her head as it didn't seem nice and round like her brother's had been and I wanted to know what we should do about it. We were told that we would just watch both the head and the eye and that it wasn't too much of a concern yet.

Well...I'm a mom and I'm sure you can relate...I couldn't stop staring at her eyes and her head. Finally in December I couldn't take it any longer. I really thought that one pupil was smaller than the other and her head shape really wasn't right. So, we went back to the Pedi. He said lets deal with one issue at a time and he sent us right away to the CT Children's Eye Care center and that Doctor told us that she had Horner Syndrome. This is not a cromosome thing but was damage to the optic nerve due to birth trauma or a tumor in the brain or spinal column. Of course when the optho told us this he was not very concerned at all and said, "It would be interesting to test her and see if it really is Horner Syndrome." So, he sent us to the Neuro-Opthomologist (one of 3 in CT and 500 in the country). Our appointment wasn't scheduled until February 4th.

I wasn't sure about all this and felt very badly that we weren't addressing her head issue so I took Alaina to the Chiropractor. She was wonderful and did some cranial sacral therapy on Alaina. It helped right away, but after the first week nothing happened.

Finally we saw the Neuro-optho on Feb. 4th and he put cocaine drops in her eyes to test for Horner's Syndrome. It turned out that she did have it, so we made an appointment for another test in which he would put some other drug in her eyes to see if the HS was caused by damage in her neck. Then, on a whim I mentioned that her head size was 10th percentile and he couldn't find her soft spot. He told us that he thought her cranial bones had fused and got us in to see the cranial/facial team at the CT Children's Medical Center in Hartford. I thought he was crazy...little did I know.

The next eye drop test didn't show any damage and so Alaina needed an MRI to rule out a tumor in her brain or neck. We had also seen the Neurologist in the Cranial/Facial clinic and he had scheduled a CT Scan. By a miracle from heaven we were able to get the two tests coordinate so Alaina only had to go under anesthisia once! It turned out there are no tumors, but she has a right coronal fusion and will need surgery.

Now the waiting begins. We still do not have a date for surgery, but are told that it will be sometime in May due to the amount of kids needing surgery right now. In May she will be 8 months.

I go back and forth between feeling numb and scared out of my mind. I don't want to lose my baby girl. I don't want her to go through this crazy and mind blowing proceedure, but at the same time I wish it was tomorrow! I'm sure this time will go by quickly and I have brought out the camera and camcorder to try and record as much as I can of her before we go to surgery. Hopefully we'll have lots to record after as well. God is in control and I know he'll see us through, but it is still scarey.

Part two will follow later. : )

Janet
03-05-2008, 04:37 PM
First of all THANK GOD there is no tumor!!! :hugg :hugg I know how scary the surgery is....I almost on more then 1 occasion felt like cancelling the whole thing. I'm so glad that I didn't. Fiona did great, they bounce back so fast. She started walking 2 weeks post op!!
We are all here for you. Please update us when you hear anything. BTW your daughter is adorable!!!

Springy
03-05-2008, 04:38 PM
I am sorry for Alaina. Just remember you are in the right spot!

charliesmummy
03-05-2008, 05:20 PM
welcome to Cranio Kids, im sorry your are going through this as you have endured so much already but you have found a great site and we will be here to support you. Please keep us updated xx

Tamz
03-05-2008, 07:49 PM
welcome to the site we are glad to have you and alaina, I am sorry you are going through this with your beautiful baby girl. but know that we are here to support you and pray for you. keep us posted.

HaydensMommy830
03-05-2008, 09:32 PM
Wow...I know exactly where you are coming from! My nephew has Horner's and when they did the MRI I was really scared b/c they told us that if he had a tumor that they would take him into immediate surgery to remove it, a VERY scary day. And my son has metopic and is scheduled for surgery on April 8th, he will be 7 months old. I found out about Hayden's surgery when he was a week old and was in a depression for about 2 weeks. I didnt answer the phone, I didnt go anywhere, I couldnt believe that my baby was going to have a major surgery. And I thought the worst, I couldnt help it! But then I found these guys here at CranioKids and I feel so confident in the surgery. I'm just ready to get it over with. Just remember put it all in God's hands! And you have an awesome support system here...I'll be praying for your little one!

Alaina's Mom
03-05-2008, 10:24 PM
Thanks for the words of encouragement everyone. I sometimes don't know how I feel about all this. I suppose overwhelmed is the right word or just up and down. It is truly encouraging to hear from all of you. Thanks.

three.little.boys
03-06-2008, 12:37 AM
Welcome and thankf for sharing your story and pic of your darling little girl! I am so sorry you are facing this. We all love meeting new members, but hate that we are all united in this same hard journey!

We all understand the overwhelming feeling you have right now. It is SO hard imagining your baby going through such an invasive surgery. That said, I'd like to share a recent experience that made me feel so lucky that my son only had cranio-

It was day #3 after Quintin's surgery for metopic cranio (just 2 weeks ago!) and we were finally moved out of the PICU to the regular pediatric floor. I was getting a Coke in the refreshment room when I started chatting with another parent He was saying that they had been there on the pediatric floor for FOUR MONTHS because his 17 year old son has a rare form of bone cancer. I saw his son later...hooked up to his rolling IV delivering his chemotherapy...he had no hair left onhis head. He was trying his best to live a normal life by playing Guitar Hero and other video games in another teenage cancer patient's room. I looked back at my son lying in the wagon behind me and it dawned on me how lucky I actually was! My son may be puffy, bruised and have his eyes swollen shut, but I was leaving that floor soon, and my son would be back to himself and playing in a few days. The other dad didn't even know if his son would live and if he did would he ever get to leave that hospital healthy as my son would later that night. Seen in perspective, I felt like I had hit the jackpot if this is the worst thing one of my children ever has to face!!

I hope this helps you see how lucky we all are that modern medicine can "fix" our kids!! It is SO HARD on all of us, and I do not want to dismiss the anxiety and pain that we parents feel going through this! But...my baby came home with me!! He is happy and playing on the floor..all smiles! Not everyone gets to say that..and, for this, I feel so very gratefull!!

Good luck and keep us posted!

Sadie

EmmaLacey
03-06-2008, 02:28 PM
Hi Jennifer,

Glad you found the courage to post Alaina's story. She is so adorable! Yes the feelings can be overwhelming at times and its so scary when you are leading up to the surgery. You don't want the day to come when you have to hand your baby over but then on the same token you just want it all to be over with. Keep us posted on when Alaina's surgery is and welcome to the group!!

maddysmom518
03-06-2008, 06:00 PM
Welcome! Glad you posted your story. We all understand your feelings. Thank God there was no tumor. I'm also glad she only had to have anesthesia once instead of twice. Madison's head also stayed around the 10th percentile, until after her surgery. She was 8 1/2 months old when she had surgery. We took her last week for her 9 month old check up and now her whole body is in the 75-90 percentiles. Her head finally caught up with the rest of her. Things will get better. Keep us updated!