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Laura
01-03-2008, 09:57 AM
My name is Laura. I live in Surrey in the UK. I have two children. Elliemae who is neraly 7 (no cranio), and a liitle boy, Beau who is 4 months and has Saggital Cranio.
Beau was born on the 28th Aug 07 and weighed 8lb 6oz. As soon as he was born me and my partner commented on the shape of Beaus head. It seemed to be a little elongated and his forhead seemed a little protruding. I stayed in hospital for two days and commented on his head numerous times to the midwifes on duty but was told that it was the moulding and it would go down. Before you get discharged from the hospital the ped has to come to check the baby over and to discharge you. Again i commented that i was not happy with Beaus head, and i could already feel a little ridge but was told again that it would go down as long as they have a soft spot it is fine. So away we went. My partner Scott told me that they were the doctors so they should no and i should just forget about it.. I couldnt forget about it though, ive had a child before so i no what shape a babys head should be. So i went to my doctor who was understanding a said he would measure Beaus head which turned out to be in normal sizing for his age. I went to my health vistior who said it was fine. It was actually starting to get on my nerves that people thought i was being to paranoid. I went back to my doctor and he said that he would measure Beaus head on a weekly basis. Again i saw my health vistiors three separate ones actually and each said it was fine. I even went as far as to ring the Nhs hotline and spoke to a nurse who told me in not so many words that i was imagining it and all babies have a ridge down there head. I also took Beau to the local A&E again i was told it was not there field. In the end i got so annoyed and frustrated with people ignoring my concerns that i did some investigating on the internet. I typed in Skull Problems in infants on google and as soon as Craniosynstosis popped up on the screen and i read the signs, i already knew this is what Beau had. I then looked at the photos of children with different types of cranio and saw Saggital Synostosis and it felt like a weight finally being lifted. I also read that the quicker it is diagnosied the better as the operatons are less invasive the younger the child is. Beau was 6 weeks. I printed everything up from the internet including pictures and took them to my doctors and demanded to be refered to a pedo at the hospital, funnily enough it was the same hospital where Beau had been born and the same hospital where i took Beau to A&E ad was told it wasnt there field. Well as soon as we went in for the appointment i let it all out. How i knew Beau had Saggital cranio how no one had listened to me. I showed her my findings off the internet and i gave her the pictures i printed up. She sent us for xrays i dint really give her a choice and they came back that Beau did indeed have Saggital....I was right all along !!
She refered me to Great Ormond Street Hospital in London. We were told that Professor Hayward who proforms the operations has to see all the referals first and ok the oppointment. So at this stage we might not of even of got seen if the professor didnt think it bad enough. Anyway thank god he booked us in for an appointment the foolowing week. We saw the Professors right hand man a doctor called David Dunaway and another specialist doctor also a cranio facial nurse specailist called Cathy. We were told Beau could have an operation if we wanted it, there was no question. You get bullied now days for having the wrong coloured hair so to have a funny shape head which could be corrected, there was just no question about it. The opperation they performed can only be done when the child is between 5-6 months. After that they have to do a whole skull remoulding, which is a longer and more harder opperation. Thank God i never did leave off asking questions and following my gut or otherwise Beau might of had to have the harder opperation. We were shown pictures of before and after operations that had been performed on children previosly. They also showed us pictures of the swelling which looked horible and upsetting but it worth it. We were given appointments to have a ct scan, eye tests, see the genetics and have blood tests, which all went fine. Beaus opperation is due on the 28th Jan 07 he will be five months. I am so scared, yet i seemed to be on auto pilot just acting as if nothings wrong maybe ive just put it to the back of my mind. Anyway thanks for listening and i will keep you updated with further appointments that are taking place, and of course the opperation. Love Laura x x

mrs j
01-03-2008, 03:50 PM
Hi Laura, ive already replied to your other post, but it sounds like yet another story of mums intuition being right, good for you for pushing it.xx

EmmaLacey
01-03-2008, 03:52 PM
Wow Laura! I get chills everytime I read a story of a new diagnosis. Its like my Emma has been diagnosed all over again. I don't know what it is. I guess all of us cranio moms have something in common and we all know the feeling. I see it all too often on here, another Mom who suspects that something is wrong and everyone keeps telling her that she is just being paranoid and that the problem will fix itself. It just makes me angry. I don't understand why Doctors don't know about this condition and why they aren't looking for it when they do these well check visits during the first few months of life. Especially when the parents have a concern. I don't know if it makes it any easier when your baby is diagnosed sooner. I guess it just depends on the situation, but to be continually told that you are wrong and should forget about it is assinine to me (if that's even a word LOL).

All I can say Laura is that you (and your husband) are the two people on the face of this earth that care for your baby the most. Maybe it is something inside you that made you persue this, the love for your baby. This surgery is the best thing for your baby and your baby was meant to have this surgery and get fixed and that is why you pushed and pushed. Its all part of God's plan if you will. This was all meant to happen and that is why it is happening, because of you! It makes me think that this is the right thing for your baby. People say, everything happens for a reason. Just know that you are not alone and that there are wonderful people here that will be your support group as you go through this difficult time. Everyone here is great! Good luck to you and congratulations for being a great Mommy!!!

Nicholas' Mom
01-03-2008, 04:30 PM
Laura - way to go for being so assertive and not listening to the doctors. We were also told from day one that our son was fine and that we didn't have to worry about his head shape (they looked at us like we were crazy when we kept asking why he had a ridge down his forehead, depressed temples, and a triangular shaped forehead). Like you, after being dismissed by so many pediatricians, we researched it on the internet, found pictures that looked exactly like Nicholas' head, and took the information we had found back to the doctor. Only then did they listen... Every time I ask "why was this missed", I'm told that it's not something that is caught until the child is older....my husband and I disagree - it should be caught early on, especially when it's so obvious and parents show concern about a child's head shape....that should at least get pediatricians thinking about cranio... I personally think pediatricians try to get you in and out of their office as quickly as possible and are therefore only looking for the obvious things when you take them in for well baby exams... Sorry, I guess I'm venting - but it does feel good to get it out and share it with folks who I know will understand my frustrations. The good news is that our babies have been diagnosed now, and will be getting the care they need. I wonder how many babies are out there who haven't been diagnosed?
Best of luck with Beau's operation on the 28th. Hanna

Laura
01-03-2008, 04:39 PM
Thank you so much you, you no i only told my family about Beaus condition. I havent even told friends.. Which i suppose is bad think its just my way of handling it. I cant handle people asking me how he is..Suppose if i dont talk about it then for me it just makes me forget. Its weird though because as soon as he has the operation and he is in the clear i will be able to talk about it.. Thats why Cranio kids is so good.. You can be yourself.. Thanks for listening

mrs j
01-03-2008, 05:34 PM
I know exactly how you feel Laura, it can be very exhausting explaining things over and over again, and i do find that when i'm talking to friends about it i do clam up a bit, i haven't told them everything that was said at our ns appointment cause it just gets me so worked up i'm frightened i'll start crying, which is obviously what friends are for, but like you said cranio kids is a safe haven, you can totally be yourself and people don't think theres something wrong with ya when you loose it a bit, its totally normal, i do think you should tell your closest friends, as you will need as much support as you can get.xxx

Nicholas' Mom
01-06-2008, 07:46 PM
I know how you guys feel about not telling people. Most of the people I work with know, only because I've had to take time away from the office for appointments and plan to take a few weeks off after the surgery. I thought it best to just tell them instead of having everyone wonder what was going on...they've all been very nice and supportive. I try not to talk about it too much, though, because I always end up choking up when I do, something I hate, especially in the office. As for family, though, most of them actually don't know. I know it sounds strange that co-workers know, but family doesn't. It was a tough decision, but I didn't want them worrying...I figured my husband and I are doing enough of that already. The day of the surgery will be especially tough, and we didn't want anyone else to have an agonizing day, going crazy thinking about what was going on in the OR. like we will...our family lives in the UK and Germany, while we live in the US, so we thought it would be better to tell them after it's all over. I'm sure my mom will want to kill me (she kind of knows something isn't quite right because during a visit when Nicholas was 2 months old, she noticed that his fontanel was unusually small, almost non-existent), but once I explain to her that I didn't tell her to spare her the months of worrying about the surgery, I'm sure she will understand. Like others have said above, that is why cranio kids is so great - having a group of people who have been through this, who care so much, and are such great listeners, is priceless. Thanks everyone!

EmmaLacey
01-06-2008, 09:12 PM
Although, I didn't quite go to the extremes of not telling people. My situation was that all my husband's and my family were out of town and I didn't have to phone them all personally and tell the story over and over. I did a website for Emma. Its www.caringbridge.org (http://www.caringbridge.org) Then I emailed it to everyone I know (friends and family) and they were able to read about Emma's condition and following along leading up to, during and after surgery. It saved a ton of phone calls and was great on the day of surgery. Everyone was able to log on and read updates and friends and family (including lots of Moms on here) were able to leave messages of support and prayers. It was very helpful to know that she had so many people thinking and praying for her. Even though you gals are hesitant to burden family members with worry, on the other hand its nice to have all the support too. I couldnt' have gotten through it without it. Just another perspective.

charliesmummy
01-08-2008, 04:56 AM
Hi Laura, i know how you feel about not telling people because we didnt tell anyone other than my mum until we had been to John Radcliffe Oxford and agreed to have the op. I just knew my inlaws would go to pieces and i couldnt cope with having to look after them and deal with it myself. Thank you for sharing your story x

Janet
01-08-2008, 10:47 AM
I still choke up when I talk about it to people and Fiona's surgery was 3-1/2 months ago....I carry a ton of guilt that I had to put my baby through this even though it was not to bad on her.